Screaming into the Night

I am screaming into the night

Listening for echoes

 

Bouncing sound waves

Off of things in the darkness

 

Images resonate

Pictures of things form

In my minds eye.

Blinding darkness

All around me

 

But I see everything

My screams scare you

But without them I am blind

I see you

Standing before me

 

I feel your discomfort

 

It's caused by my mere presence

 

My screams scared you at first

but they are nothing but a nuisance now.

You think I am crazy

But I can't take the darkness

 

It is so lonely.

If I stop screaming

The sound waves stop dancing

The images stop forming

and

The blackness comes.

You take me to a hospital

Where they administer sedatives

 

You think you are helping

But your drugs stop the screams

And

bring the darkness.

when

They stop my screams

The sound waves cease

 

My vision is gone.

And even though I look quiet and restful

I am plunged into a world of darkness and shadow.

 

Nothing but the deepest blackness

 

My imagination is tremendous

 

I can see things that you

would not be able to comprehend

 

they come at me in the darkness

and them morph into life.

 

Vivid color dances in my mind

 

Gnashing teeth

Rip furrows into my soul

 

Where demons plant crops

That grow into children with no faces.

 

Each one of them sings a song of sadness

As they sway in the wind like mutant corn stalks

 

Only I can hear their songs.

 

They bathe me in sadness

Minutes tick away one second at a time.

 

How long until your pills wear off

and my screaming begins.

It's the only thing

that can make the monsters Fade.

Hours pass

My mind is at the brink of snapping

The sedatives finally

Lose their hold

I scream again and the sound waves dance

The monsters go

And peace comes once again

I feel your presence

Standing beside me

 

I feel the needle in my arm once more

 

I know what comes next

 

Madness returns

You think you’re doing the right thing

But you'll never understand


You never will.