Regrets

We all have them

There are things is my past that I wish would have been different

There are things

That I have helped to hide

Out of fear

Today I stood up

And tried to honor someone

That I don’t even remember

I was so young

And it was oh, so long ago

I may have put my family in danger

But as a Marine

I couldn’t run anymore

Its time to do the right thing

No matter how it comes out

Nobody stood up for her

We all abandoned her out of fear for our lives

we couldn’t have helped anyway

She was already dead

But I have felt shame all of these years

It wasn’t my cross to bear

But I have carried it all of these years anyway.

I was only about four when it happened

This won’t help her

It won’t change anything

But when I die,

I won’t be one of the people

That kept on hiding

I will have a clean soul

So the question is

Am I really doing this for her

Or am I doing it for me?

The answer is

I have helped to hide it for about 36 years

I have no right to say it is for her

I’m getting old

I’m over weight

And I may only have a few years left

I’m doing this to ease my mind

And clear my conscience

It’s for me

No matter what I want to believe

It’s for me

I’m Sorry