That Place

People that have known me

say that there are some times that I just go away

some kind of blank look comes across my face

and you can kind of see forever in my eyes

The innocent ones sometimes ask me

where did you go

but I can't do it do them

I just can't tell them where I was

its a place of darkness

where screams are the norm

and pain is god

to describe it to someone that thinks they can handle it

would be to take something away from them

where do I go?

I don't even know

and whats worse

I don't know how I get back

I'm always worried

that some day I wont be able to get back

the memories of that place haunt my dreams

or maybe this is the dream

and it is the way that I escape the reality that is that place.

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Today

like many days

I question my own sanity

I have been told that if you ever wonder if your crazy

then you are sane

because people who are truly crazy

think they are sane

that comforts me

until i wonder

if I made the people up that said that