Not because I have failed at life,

because most everything that I have tried,

I did pretty well.

My failure comes in the form of letting my fear beating me.

I have so many things that I want to do

And that I want to learn.

I have been contemplating my New Year’s resolution.

I’m tired of living my life the way that I have been.

I think about doing things but never do them.

I live by the belief that it is better to want something then to get it.

As long as you have a dream it is still perfect,

when you actually get what you wanted it is never as good as the dream.

I plan on changing this behavior.

Another problem is that I worry about doing something and messing it up.

When your poor and you have one chance at getting something right,

Sometimes it’s better to wait till you know it will be done right the first time.

This of course leads to a lot of unfinished projects.

Not having my truck going has led to me sitting around as lot and gaining a lot of weight.

This will be the year of doing.

I may mess up a project or two but I will at least try.

I will make plans,

I will follow through and I will get things done this year.

It will be hard with as much as I weigh now but doing more things will help me to get back in to shape and lose weight.

I am also going to focus on making the farm pay for itself

I plan to have a hen house and collect the eggs to eat.

Raise male ducks to eat (this will be tough, their little hearts race so fast when they get scared.)

Raise male chickens to eat

And raise male goats to eat.

And get the garden ready this year so we can have bunches of veggies.

My motto for this year will be a combination of Carpe diem ('seize the day'), and just do it.

My new motto will become Seize the day and just do it

This year I will not be a failure even if some of my plans fail.

This year I will do my best to be the best that I can be.