Last Night

 

During waking hours

Idol hands

Lead lazy minds

To dark places

Nothing is what it seems

right and wrong have no defining edges

 

Nights filled with stomach turning liaisons

With former diamonds

Whose worm ridden features

Show the truth behind the glitter

Holes show the blackness of coal beneath.

 

Horror shows itself through skin stretched so tight

That the demons face is clear

 

The monsters keeper stands there too

Truth no longer hidden

There’s hatred in those eyes

You’re its only cause

 

The demon in the diamond has roots that go so deep

Little bits of love remain

They’re fouled by the beast

 

It, they, whatever it has become

Tries to work its magic

 

Falling is so close

For me

Its hold, it was so strong

 

But damage done

It cannot fool

Soon it knows this too

 

It lashes out in anger

Hatred fills the room

 

I struggle only for a second

Before I flee in terror

 

The cornfields and the corridors

Lead falsely, here and there

 

My truck, it has a flat

The kids have the car

 

Running through the cornfield

I cry out to the stars

 

I find a place but it’s not mine

I go in anyway

The law, it comes

I cannot fight

They strap me in the chair.

 

I do not fell the current

But my lungs, they just won’t fill

 

Something is over my mouth, oh God, something is over my mouth, I can’t breathe, something is over my mouth. Terror creeps into me, it’s overwhelming, I can’t move, something is over my mouth. I try to thrash around, the hold is soo strong.

 

Consciousness fades

And I wake up.

 

I struggle to breathe, my mask is over my nose, my nose doesn’t work, Oh God I can’t remember how to open my mouth.

 

Mouth opens, I gasp for air.

Oh sweet oxygen, I thought I would never feel you in my lungs again.

 

I take the mask to my C-pap machine off and use my nose spray. My nose opens up; I put the mask on again and drift off to sleep.

 

Oh God, I’m in the field again.