walk in to infinity

 

As we walk into infinity

Our minds,

they are obscured

 

a cloud of desire envelops us

and pulls us to our mate

 

we dance beneath the covers

and lie there skin to skin

 

when it is all over

we do it all again

 

life

it comes up at us

 

it smothers us some times

 

when it gets overwhelming

I start to write my rhymes

 

I lose myself in movies

I drink a couple beers

 

I dream my little dreams

To keep away the tears

 

When the weight builds up

And it all gets me down

 

I think of ways to stop it

But nothing can be found

 

We give up who we are

To protect the little ones

From men who are too selfish

To ever think of them

 

Over time the mission gets to us

But we stand strong and true

No matter who tries to hurt them

We’ll do all we can do

 

But I still need these nights

 

To get away

 

To go inside

 

To heal and to regroup

 

I always find a way back out

To fight against the world

To stand up for the children

Giving what I can

 

I always feel I could do more

Apparently its true

Cause there’s always someone there

to remind me

When I’m not coming through.

 

I’d give my life

To help the world

But there would always be

Someone to ask what my angle was

And take my pride from me

 

So I sit inside this little box

Look at my computer screen

Its my window out

 my window in

its how I see the world

 

cause I don’t deal with humans well

that will never change

there’s too much sadness out there

those wanting to hurt

 

I hear their words

 

At me or not

 

Really doesn’t make a difference

 

I feel the harm around me

It soaks in like a sponge

I wear it like it were a coat

It is always here

 

So if you ask why I’m not around

This I’ll tell you true

I don’t deal well with the pain and hurt

Don’t think I ever will

 

So I’ll stay right here

I’ll hide myself

With my head

buried in the sand

And wonder why we kill each other

Over useless pieces of land

 

I’ll ponder why the Christians

tortured so many souls

Just to hear the words

“I believe”

While they’re ripping out their bowels

 

Jesus preached love

But its in the same book with the hate

 

I’ll won’t figure it all out

Until it is too late

 

I want to love our fellow man

And leave the hate behind

But that will never happen

As long as someone is right

 

We can’t agree to disagree

So hate it starts to boil

 

We offer ultimatums

Neither will back down

We kill each other every day

Claiming to be civilized

 

As those of us who really care

Sit home with tears in our eyes

 

To take a life

Rips our soul

That piece is gone for ever

 

It never comes back to us

Were always incomplete

Even when its all said and done

With weapons at our feet

 

We can’t recall the bullet

After it’s sent on its way

We can’t give back the life we took

No matter how we pray

 

Your wars, you can keep them

Religion, just the same

I’ll hide in my little trailer

And look the other way

 

I’ll stack my dreams like cord wood

And use them when there’s time

Keep the children safely

And ease their little minds

 

I don’t have all the answers

This claim never was mine

But I doubt it lies in violence

Or the taking of lives

 

We teach them math and spelling

we keep them from harm’s way

we spend time with them on Saturday

and watch them romp and play

 

we do this

not out of duty

its privilege, my friend

by protecting the innocent

we help our soul to mend