Battle Mode

(I have with held the lawyers name out of respect for him. If you know who it is please keep it to yourself)

Today a lawyer threw everything that he had at me about my writing

He didn’t have anything at all that was really worthy of being mentioned in court

So he started nit-picking my writing

Thinking that I would just be some uneducated weakling

That would cower at his questions

I did not.

 

He took parts out of my blogs

Conveniently forgetting the beginning

and the ending paragraphs that explained the reasons behind my words.

 

He tried to make me look bad on the stand

The problem was

That he is so used to being a lawyer

That fights for the rights of abusive men

 

He’s so used to doing a job

that any normal person would be ashamed to do

 

that he had no idea

what dealing with somebody

that had real honor and integrity was like.

 

I have spent my life trying to do good

and standing up for what I believe is right

 

He expected me to crack

I did not

Or be ashamed of my writing and my childhood

I am not

 

I survived a world that he could never comprehend

Half of it was because of people like him

Lawyers that get the bad guys and the wife beaters out of trouble

 

Today’s case aside

 

If it weren’t for those types of lawyers

More women would come forward

More abuse victims would come forward

More rape victims would come forward

And fewer children would go through hell every day

They would come forward because

they wouldn’t be afraid that their attackers would be released.

 

I look at lawyers

that choose to defend the men

who hurt women and children

as a lower life form than the actual abuser.

 

I pity their wives and children

that secretly watch the newspapers

hoping that they won’t read

about a dead woman or child that

their husband or father

put in harm’s way

by manipulating the system

 

I pity them because they have to worry every day

What their friends think about their fathers actions.

 

The bad guys will be defended

A good man doesn’t have to sell himself

Piece by piece

Defending abusers and rapists

There are plenty of lawyers willing to do those jobs

 

I stood in front of a man today that was far better than that

He is really selling himself short

He could choose to defend the people that get hurt

He doesn’t have to try to make up something out of nothing

to make an innocent man look bad

so his client looks better

 

Mr. Lawyer, if you’re reading this

This part is for you

You asked me about battle mode

 

You asked what it was

 

Here it is in a nutshell

(The civilian version)

 

Battle mode is

Adrenaline

It’s a rapid heart beat

Its every hair on your neck and arms sticking straight out

Battle mode is tunnel vision

Its seeing your opponent,

And only your opponent

Seeing him clearly

 

Its noticing every time his eyes meet yours

that he looks away

Because he doesn’t believe in what he is doing

 

Its watching for the tell tale signs

Twitches

Swallowing a little harder than normal

And the general uneasiness that comes with realizing

that he picked a fight with a lion when he was only expecting a mouse

 

Sir,

Battle mode

Is 110% focus

It’s being willing to go balls to the wall

Giving up everything that you own

To defend someone

Or something

That you believe in with all of your heart

 

It’s being willing to do everything short of breaking the law

or compromising your morals

to do what you know is right.

 

Battle mode is what you witnessed today, sir

And I really hope that you read this

Because you deserve to experience it

 

You deserve to feel what it’s like

to feel the energy and passion flowing through you

Because you are doing exactly what you believe to be right.

 

I don’t consider today a loss

Because I gave everything that I had inside of me defending what I believed to be right

 

I also don’t consider what you did a win.

 

Sir

A win is a feeling that happens

When you gave your all

The final score means nothing when the game is over

Because competing against others is meaningless

You have won if you pushed yourself harder and further than you ever have before

even if your score at the end of a game isn’t as high as your opponents

 

you sir deserve to feel what battle mode feels like

I implore you

Please stop fighting for the side that you’re fighting for

Stop taking cases that you aren’t proud to take

Stand up for those who can’t defend themselves

Even if it means a pay cut

 

You will feel something

that will be a million times more powerful

than anything that you have ever felt in your life

You’ll be able to look people in the eye and hold your head up high

You will have a sense of pride

And you will never have to worry about your family reading the newspaper

And seeing the victims of somebody that you defended.

 

Think about this

Johnnie Cochran got OJ off

We all know that OJ killed his wife

Johnnie Cochran is one hell of a lawyer

But he is an embarrassment to his fellow man

 

Your better than the job that you’re doing sir

I could see it in your eyes

And I’m a pretty good judge of character.

 

You deserve to feel what battle mode is

And you’ll never understand it

Doing a job that you don’t believe in

 

You’re a good man

But you’re doing a job that you know isn’t right.