These Eyes have Seen a Lot

 

These eyes have seen a lot

But have they seen enough

 

After the realization has crept up on me

of how bad my physical condition has gotten

 

I look back on my life

I thought that these eyes had seen enough

I have done and seen so many things

 

An idea has started to manifest itself in my mind

That idea is

That these eyes have seen

Almost all they’re going to see

 

The last couple years

I’ve waited to get help

because our promised healthcare

was always just right around the corner.

 

Last night the pain in my arm was worse

I don’t talk about it much

Because we can’t afford to get it fixed

And I don’t like to worry Mandy

 

The shortness of breath

Constant exhaustion

Pain in my left arm

 

They are all signs that something serious is wrong

 

Being a veteran

I could go to the Veterans Hospital

but it’s a 6 hour round trip drive

we’ve only recently acquired a vehicle that could make it.

 

My only hope is going to a regular hospital

Its going to be very expensive.

The idea of stopping our forward movement

and sinking back in to poverty

because I’m sick really bothers me.

 

Maybe I should have worked harder in my life

So I could have afforded to get sick

I hate to think of dying and leaving Mandy

with that huge medical bill.

 

I guess after all this time

I realize that my position on healthcare

Might not have been a fair one

Maybe having health care for everyone in America is wrong

Maybe I wanted it

For the simple reason

That I just wanted to live a little longer

And that was selfish of me.