The last 3 days have really put things in to perspective

I can’t even walk to the bathroom without resting

I really think that I need to go in to the hospital

I have most of the symptoms of having a blocked Artery

Mandy and I got married yesterday

I fear that if I don’t go in within the next few days

That I will leave soon

It is really getting bad

I can’t even eat dinner without getting out of breath

The question is

Would she be better off for me to just slip away

Or for me to stay around another 10 years

but rack up a huge medical bill that we can’t pay

I don’t want to leave her yet

I love her

But I hate the thought of leaving her with such a huge bill.

I have aged so much inside

Over the last 3 days

I feel as though I’ve went from 42 to 62 in 3 days

I’m glad that I got to marry her

But I feel greedy for marrying her

Knowing that I may be in my last days

I almost went to the emergency room yesterday

But I have one week of homework left

And Mandy has to work tonight

I think I’ll go in Sunday or Monday

After she is done working

So she can watch the kids while I’m there.

I really love her

I didn’t understand what love was before

Before this it was all one sided

It is kind of ironic

That I finally find someone that loves me back

And it’s almost time to go home.

No matter what happens my friends

It’s been a good run

I love you Mandy

I finally understand what love is.