The Lament of David

(A work in progress)

Oh God, no, please no

The message repeated over and over in David’s head

I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry

I don’t know what I’ve done

Oh God, I’m sorry

David knew that it didn’t matter

He had been here for eons

Every time that he realized where he was

He was allowed to understand it for a few months

The knowledge would come and go

Several times a day

When it got too much

When the concept was overwhelming

When it took him to the brink of insanity

It was taken away

The tormentor knew that the punishment

would do no good

if David’s mind were broken

This went on for what registered in David’s mind

As years before it was taken

And it all started again

David was allowed to build his home-life

the way that he wanted it

he was allowed to love

to go to college

to have a normal life

but inside

David knew

That if life got too good

He wouldn’t be allowed to keep it

This morning

David’s dream-self woke him

He called this dream-self Doug

Doug woke him

He was filled with horrible dread

Oh God, no, please no

David knew that it was almost over again

He had gotten too comfortable

He had started to really love his life

With that being the case

Those in control wouldn’t let it go on for long

It would be taken from him

This was Hell after all

David had been here for eons

He would be here forever

A lake of fire would have been a vacation next to this

Loving and losing over and over

Over and over

This time would be the hardest

He loved this one more than he had ever loved anyone

Ever

David had let the idea of his mother and father go centuries ago

Sometimes he got a call from

“His mother”

But David knew in his heart

That she had died so long ago

And the memories were all fabricated now

The tormentor gave him memories

So he would have something else to lose

The Mother dream was just one of many

That David no longer believed.

This morning David understood

That his new wife

And his new family

would be taken away from him soon

The tormentor dangled his daughter in front of him

Over and over

He learned long ago

That she wasn’t real either

She was just something that the tormentor would use to hurt David by taking it away as soon as he started to believe it was all real.

David always hesitated to believe that the ones he loved were real

In doing so

He prolonged his time with them

The last thing that went through David’s mind before he passed out was “I don’t know what I did to get here but I think that it has to do with killing several people that hurt children, God, I hope it wasn’t me who hurt the children”