Once again

(A work of fiction – work in progress)

Once again

David sat alone in the darkness

Tears in his eyes

There has to be more

He mumbles to himself

There has to be more

The lack of energy

The weight gain

The shortness of breath

Where’s the logic

Where’s the reasoning behind all of it

Why is this weight on my chest

Why is there only despair

When the night comes

All I want to do is sleep

School is no longer important

Money is no longer important

The animals aren’t even important

The world is so full of hatred

No matter how hard you work

There will always be someone

that wants to hurt you

someone that wants

to take what you have

David sat in the dark room

Typing on the keyboard

Tears in his eyes

Knowing

that the coming of tomorrow

was inevitable

he knew that he would sink further

in to the abyss

beyond the grasping hands

of those that tried to help

he kept telling himself

it would be over soon

the burning plastic smell would return

he would swing back up

and everything would be ok

he told himself that

but this time

he didn’t believe it

Tomorrow

He would hide his fears once more

He would go on

As if nothing were wrong

He would smile and nod his head

He would pretend

That there wasn’t a black void

Where his heart should be

He would convince them

Just as he always did

That everything was ok