Sometimes I wish That

I would have taken the blue pill

 

There are times, more often than not,

that I wish I never would have studied

the things that I've studied.

I wish I could forget what I've learned

and just believe as a child believes.

 

Can you just imagine how comforting that would be?

 

There is no need to go in to what I’m talking about;

all it would do is stir up controversy and arguments.

 

 

I studied because I wanted to learn

the problem comes in

when you figure out that the knowledge

is heavier than the questions.

 

I remember back

To the time before

But still

 

At six years old

 

I knew of guns and murder

I knew of prisons and convicts

 

That alone was heavy

But I still had the innocence of ignorance

When it came to most things

 

I would gladly give up the knowledge

 

Of what we did to get our country

The Native American Genocide

The atrocities of slavery

 

But these are minor in comparison

To the other things that I wish I hadn’t learned.

 

I reflect back on a friends words daily

“College is over rated”

 

It is true

Even though I learned most of the things

That I wish I didn’t know

Through thousands of hours of studying

On my own

 

I think that it would truly be easier

to just believe what I was told

then it is to have dug up the truths

 

Unfortunately

I never had the luxury of being told

ONE way

 

There was never anything

that was provided

as solid and factual

 

I had many sources of input

Many ideas

I was never told

“This is the one and only way”

 

I envy those that can believe

in something so simple

 

and yes

it is simple

to only have one option

 

To truly believe

With all of your heart

That something is true

Would make life so simple

 

You would still have the choice

To do right or wrong

 

But to know

In no uncertain terms

What right and wrong were

 

That would be so nice

 

 

And beyond that

To be able to believe

What you were told

Even on issues that defied

scientific explanation

 

oh how wonderful that would be

 

I may not normally show it

But there is a level of envy

That I cannot begin to describe