Facebook has become a good friend over the last couple of years

The problem is that it has become something that I rely on

One way to assure spiritual growth

Is to throw away the things that comfort you

To grow we need to get out of our comfort zone

I’ve known this for a long time

And I’ve struggled with it for just as long

I’ve tried several times to lesson my facebook activity but I am a couch potato and that makes facebook and eating my only entertainment

Yesterday there was something inside of me that snapped

It happened when I heard a little girls story of an adults childishness. After the adults comment the child’s response was “ok”. Imagine that, no need to argue or prove a point. I learned something from her mature reply to a bully. A ten year old showed me that we can be strong in our beliefs and not have a need to defend our beliefs.

I will use this lesson

I have truly deviated from my path and in doing so I’ve sunk back in to a depression. I even started taking meds again. This time it was for PTSD but my point is that I was off of meds for almost 6 years and my life became a wonderful experience. Sure I had sad times but it was normal sad stuff and not the depression that I lived with before I accepted that I was Wiccan.

To round this blog out I’m going to put my intentions in black and white.

I’m going to remove myself from the path that I’ve been on
I’m not sure exactly where I’m going but it will involve being outside much more than I am now, even if it is just sitting. I have so many dreams that are just outside of these walls and if I’m outside it will be easier to get started on them.

I really want to use my old facebook page to upload my pictures but I’m not going to unless I remove every one of my friends and block the page from view. I need some place to log my daily activities so I can go back and review my moods and feelings so I can learn from them but there is a difficulty involved in doing that. Facebook really helps me with myself study.  I used to love uploading my pictures all of the time but it isn’t the same on my new profile. It feels like a lie.

So what do I do?
I think that what will eventually happen is that I remove all of my friends and only keep my wife on the friends list.  For now I’m struggling with that because I have so little contact with the outside world. In a way, I’m afraid I’ll go mad without the connection but maybe that’s it, maybe that’s the key. Maybe a touch of madness is what I need.

If you get removed from my friends list it doesn’t mean that I don’t consider you a friend it just means I found the strength to move forward. Please don’t be offended if it happens. My spiritual growth is my first priority and my accumulation of knowledge is second, all of you come after that in some way or another.

That’s all that I have for now

My evolution continues